Remember, all 52 pickups are open to interpretation. My interpretation might not be the same as yours - make it yours, make it a mantra, make it life lived well.
This week the pickup is:
Do you have conditions and contingencies to be met before you allow yourself to grow? Do the dishes have to be done in order for you to take time to knit?
Do you note who was last to call whom in a friendship and let that limit you when you want to pick up the phone?
Would you really work harder if you had a raise?
What is holding you back from the growth you want to achieve?
This week try to take note of the conditions you set for yourself that hinder your growth.
This little guy is a cutting from our ficus. The ficus that we've had since before we were married. That ficus has lived indoors and out, upstairs, downstairs, in houses and apartments, but the best growing it ever did wasn't in a pot.
A few years ago we had a dinner party. Having spent my money on the food, the decoration had to be minimal, so, I took a few cuttings from the ficus and popped them in small vases and vials with a touch of water.
Weeks later I realized one cutting was still alive. I went to pull it out of the tiny egg vase it was in and low and behold, it had roots so large it couldn't be removed. The little plant simply wanted to grow. It grew without a single, appropriate condition: no soil, very little water, not much light to speak of (it was on a shelf)...and yet it grew and grew until it was too big to be contained.
I watered that little cutting and tended to it after that - and it continued to flourish. Finally, by accident, the little vase broke, and I replanted the roots and cutting into the same pot as it's parent - where it continues to grow.
Sure, a cutting of a branch is not the same as a human, but in it's simple desire to be more, in its single-minded, unhindered goal that tiny cutting became what is now a huge plant, not a single proper condition met for it's early progress; and we can, if we choose, move beyond our demands, expectations, and conditions to grow, achieve and become someone unimaginably beautiful.